What I’ve learned, or learned again, or am trying to learn:
(1) Love and community is all that matters, AND (not “but”) it’s also important to know yourself. Being with people I love and who love me, Steve and Sarah…and who love Mark (and don’t mind talking about him a lot) is super important…but right now I can only handle people in short, small doses. I know this is causing my family, in particular, great pain. God, I wish they could fix this, too. Whether introvert or ambivert, my inclination, when I am hurt, is to draw inward, like a turtle retreating into its shell. I don’t know how to do it any other way. I can’t force myself to be something I am not.